Client Review: Life Changing Insights from Tarot Reading

Mridul - California, USA

(Note: This has been written by a client and reflects their personal experience with the Tarot reading)

Many moons ago, I was struggling with matters of the heart when a dear friend suggested Tarot. My logical mind promptly dismissed it as hogwash. Hocus Pocus. A child’s card game indeed ! How can random cards with pretty pictures have anything meaningful to say at all? I wasted no time in such trivialities and focused on my singular strength - building logical constructs of all problems. For my training was such that everything can be solved linearly - by picking the optimal path and staying persistent. Indeed, the world neatly fits in four quadrants. But my problems persisted, I was spinning in doom loops and the world did not fit in four quadrants. Having been utterly defeated and running out of my own resources, I finally caved in.

My first reading was powerful enough that I followed up with the second. And finally went to meet for an in-person session. The third one - the most powerful - shook my psyche. The session started at sunset a bit after 7pm as the warm glow over the horizon was fading into darkness. As we sat down across a low table, Rujuta lit a few candles, purifying the place with her own rituals to get rid of any dark residuals or overhangs before we got started. Her long flowing hair falls straight down as she meditates, drawing her inner resources to deliver her best for this session.

Formulating the right question in tarot is critical. A question like “What am I supposed to learn today?” or “My love and relationships do not give me joy - what am I supposed to reflect upon?” Unlike astrology, Tarot is not about revealing the future, but rather about exploring the turmoil of your unconscious self. Tarot can project hidden perceptions, and help us clear those out, as I had researched online to prepare for this reading.

My question to Rujuta was broad, seeking guidance on the status quo of my relationship struggles. My dear friend sat alongside as Rujuta started to lay out the cards, nine in total. The first one catches her eye and she starts to speak, a flow evident of the intuitive force that has started to work through her.

“So here you have the Queen of Pentacles, representing your recent past” - It deals with money, a sense of security, both financially and emotionally, often linked to home and family. This was a gut punch of sorts - my entire life has been about dealing with fear / scarcity of money. It is my life’s largest force, and my biggest insecurity. In tarot, the Queen of Pentacles is in a league of its own. The primary lesson and energy of this card is about learning to first nurture yourself and then to do for others. Like many who give too much and burn out, I had found myself waylaid and wasted. The Queen was here to remind me to start with myself. (See more here on this subject) But for Rujuta, this was something deeper - she reminded me in her sagacious soft voice that money is a form of safety, security and nurturing - your soul, your environment and all those around you. My recent past was filled with anxiety about financial worries and her first drawn card was just the beginning.

The second card, an indicator of the present times was the Hierophant which represents spiritual guidance. Ironic that my present state of affairs had brought me to a spiritual guide, who was then drawing out a card that mirrored my soul. “Your turmoil has brought you to seek answers and wisdom. The best place to find answers is in self reflection - to absorb and then take only what rings true” she pointed out. This card often indicates a time for learning and seeking guidance from mentors or spiritual leaders. And here I was - sitting with Rujuta. This was when it started to truly sink in - that this is not some hocus pocus, but psychic matters are beyond the logical comprehension.

As we kept progressing to the next card, which was the Four of Pentacles representing my current attitude, I was holding onto everything too tightly, often due to fear of loss. Be it money, be it the steering wheel, be it my own nerves or clenched jaws, a need for control and security - I was, as the card shows trying to grab everything in my domain and hang on to it with dear life. Being overly possessive has been my insecurity for a long time, and was not just my current attitude. I needed to let go, to trust the Universe and breathe.

My fifth draw was The Tower. Rujuta explained that this is called the Major Arcana - a powerful card which is indicative of a situation that causes shock, sudden change, upheaval, and revelation. “A significant transformation, which might be challenging but necessary for personal evolution, is beginning” The Tower suggests that clinging to old ways will no longer be possible. Embracing change, despite its difficulty, was my major arcana. Rujuta reminded me that “Major Arcana” cards in any reading tell us that we are amidst a profound phase of our life where major changes, lessons, or insights are at play. Indeed, like a snake that sheds its skin, I had been able to drop significant baggage related to properties, protracted lawsuits which had dissolved away bringing the understanding that there is a space beyond right and wrong.

The next card was The Ten of Wands signifying burdens and responsibilities, often feeling overwhelmed by the weight of them. “You are carrying too much” Rujuta’s voice becomes stern as she studies this one. “Fears? Of what?” I sit tongue tied.

Rujuta continues stripping away the subconscious layers I have been hiding inside, and moves on to the next one - The Ace of Wands. “Your near future heralds new beginnings” she says with a hint of a smile. This card suggests you will encounter opportunities that will spark your passion and creativity.” Funnily enough, my friend who sits next to me, holding my hand, is my partner in a new creative project. We have been totally energized by it and the Ace of Wands is shining brightly at us.

As she started to read the next card - The Lovers - my insides churned and I almost wept with joy. “This signifies a deep connection with another person” which was true. I had felt a new found love in my recent years, which brought me much joy.

And as the reading comes to the end, the final card is The Sun card, which is considered to be one of the most positive cards in the tarot, symbolizing success, joy, and abundance. The dark parts of the session done, a weight lifted off my shoulders and Rujuta is now smiling beatifically ”The Sun card suggests that any new ventures you undertake will be met with success and will bring happiness and fulfillment. It encourages you to approach new opportunities with confidence and optimism.” I turn towards my friend sitting next to me, and we make a silent promise to each other to move ahead with the power of the Sun.

To further confirm the insights of the reading she asked me to pull a card from an oracle deck to check the energies. The card that came up was the Heart Guardian Card - a reflection of “The Situation You Are In”. Rujuta’s somber voice goes on to describe “this card emphasizes the importance of love in your current situation, and a time for you to learn how to give and receive love. To love, become lovable and become loving - this is your work and your challenge”. It was evident she could relate to my lifelong suffering. For it is true that I had struggled to give, or to receive love in a healthy wholesome manner. “If you learn to do this well, you will reveal the blessing you have to offer in your life” - I hurriedly wrote this sentence down, grasping on to each word. My fears, possessiveness, or insecurities have always clamped me up. It was time for me to liberate myself and become loving. I need to open my dear heart, so help me God.

As Rujuta wraps up her cards and gets ready to leave, she summarizes the session with her unique stamp and style of wisdom saying that “your cards suggest a journey, an upheaval leading to a transformation. The burdens you carry should now be let go. New beginnings are on the horizon. And as you proceed, remember that Love and relationships play a crucial role in your current situation. Being open-hearted is the way ahead. May your future projects and expansions be successful and fulfilling, bringing joy and abundance into your life.” With those words, she departed.

It was almost 9pm and two hours had passed by. I sat still for a long time, my head in my hands, trying to grasp at the psychic earthquake I had been through. My logical ammunition was rendered useless. I was reminded that as logic goes, nothing in a caterpillar tells us it could become a butterfly. And thus, my transformation too had begun, for which I remain grateful to Rujuta.

(In-person Reading completed in July 2023 during my visit to India)

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